ABOUT!!!!!!!

my name is ZADA LAMIA. cy if ur nasty. connor ulysse & soye are even nastier be careful

im a HE im a MAN im a MALE i wanna go to WAR

i dont wanna go to war thats bad

i draw. and . do other things i think

i make music and write and watch my body every day as it gradually slips from my superego's grasp and falls into a chasm i can only describe as "once me"

i am very interested in philosophy and all that. i like to pretend im a dog sometimes. maybe a snow leopard if im wearing enough clothes. i murdered the little child that lived in my room all those years ago. i miss it.

i reluctantly believe in a higher power of some sort because i have that kind of clinical depression that gets worse when i remember i will not exist soon. its selfish i know im working it. until then praise be to hephaistos the crafter, hestia the hearthkeeper, pan the wild and wilderness i am granted the honour to witness every day, hathor the sky and sun and origin of all creative pleasure, set the strength i feel in the sands and the sky and the hearts of the vile, geb the earth the water and the animals that feed on it, nut the night and the moon and the darkness that overcomes all. chat, my life and the love inside me, the orange cascade of fire that will spill from my corpse when you command so.

crazy? i was crazy once. they put me in a room. a rubber room. a rubber room with rats! rats? rats make me crazy! crazy? i was crazy once. they put me in a ro

arfff woof woof bark grrr mrrrow caw caw

im friends with cats dogs and chickens ask me about them

i have a lot of characters. some of them could be considered tulpas

^_^

in case you havent noticed im sick in the head

im familiar with acrylic & oil paints, nail polish, lychees, minecraft, ikea, french bande dessinée, late triassic dinosaurs, biblical figures, cat rearing, cleaning products, doctor who, scarification, cluster b personality disorders, high-school level astronomy, vocaloid, watercolour, taxonomy, mustelids, pride flags, the pokedex, the bern tierpark, dog breeds, the felidae family, decora kei/harajuku fashion, house md, the guinness world records book of 2016, spray paint, recently extinct animals, fursuit making, packers and stps, krita, pro-civ anarchy, middle english, mid-2010s cbeebies, smosh, grunge fashion, the members of king gizzard & the lizard wizard, london charity shops, punk fashion, french guinean languages

i think people who make fun of ppls nationalities are annoying

hi guys welcome to my let's play of... um... uh..... th- the uh... um. nevermind. i lost the file. see you in 12 days.

sometimes i wake up at 3 am and sit in the middle of the road in front of my home looking at the stars. they calm me but inspire existential dread if i think about them too long

olives SUCK

aria, can you make sure zada's not sleeping in? i just got 29 voice messages of them mumbling something about lungs.

OOH IM FINALLY RED!!!!!!!!! IM FINALLY RED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SEE THE WORLD NOW! I SEE IT! OH MY SKIES... IT'S BEAUTIFUL. COME ON, COME SEE IT! HEY, ARE YOU... WHERE ARE YOU? WE CAN SEE IT NOW.

YOU DON'T WANT TO? WHY?

NO, YOU NEED TO SEE IT TOO. YOU ALSO WORKED FOR THIS. LET'S GET YOU UP. WHAT'S...

COME ON, GET UP. WHAT? HEY, YOU WANTED TO BEFORE. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? NO, I- STOP STAYING THAT. YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO. DON'T PUT IT ON ME. I DID EVERYTHING YOU WANTED. ... YOU MEAN I WASTED MY TIME? DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MANY- HOW MANY YEARS I DEDICATED TO YOU?

NO, YOU DON'T GET TO SAY THAT. YOU CAN'T TAKE IT BACK.

YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH. I KNEW I SHOULD'VE LEFT YOU TO DIE IN THAT HOLE.

YOU'LL GET TO SEE WHAT'S OUT THERE WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. STOP CRYING. THIS IS THE LAST TIME YOU GET TO HOLD ME AND YOU DON'T EVEN SMILE. YOU'RE AWFUL.

LET ME KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE DOWN THERE.

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